This week’s blog is very late, and for that I sincerely apologize. I have had a hard time coming up with what to blog about this week, and then the universe decided to throw some curve balls my way. I met these challenges head on and I am glad to say that for now everything seems like it is back to normal.
Mark talked this week about how now is the time that people start drifting. I have to admit that I have lost focus at times when things get stressful, when unexpected problems and issues pop up along with all of the regular day-to-day chores and responsibilities. As a stay at home mom with two little ones who are 2 and 3 years old I hardly ever have a minute to myself. I always have little shadows following me no matter what I am doing. This really keeps me on my toes. I juggle cooking, cleaning, dishes, laundry, and taking care of a husband and 2 little boys (which is never ending BTW). Then when the universe decides that I am not doing enough and I need a challenge, it is hard to stay focused and have a positive mental attitude.
This week the virtue I decided to focus on was organization. OH MY GOD. What was I thinking?! This was really easy to find in others. Especially on Pinterest and other “Mommy” blogs. I decided to try to actually organize things for myself this week as it would add more dots to my chart. I went to work organizing the house, getting rid of clutter, throwing junk away, putting things aside either to sell or donate later. Then I went around the house picking up toys and putting them away in little storage bins separated by type. I cleaned and vacuumed the boys room and admired what I had accomplished. It didn’t last long. As soon as they could they destroyed the room and all the toys ended up in a huge jumbled up pile on the floor. This is why we can’t have nice things.
When we woke up on Thursday morning we were shocked to discover that our phone and internet were out. I had to go next door to borrow the neighbor lady’s phone to call our phone service company to find out what had happened. Due to a mix-up on their end our services had been disconnected that morning. After spending a half hour on the phone, they finally decided to reconnect our service.
Later on in the week, right before I was going to sit down and write a blog post, my youngest decided to turn my desktop computer off. When I turned it back on it wouldn’t load Windows. I had to run several tests and do a system restore before it finally decided to come back on.
During times like these I have to try hard to stay positive, it is so easy to fall back into my old ways and get a peptide fix. That old blueprint kicks in and takes over. I have to fight hard to stay in control. I try to stay positive and use the power of substitution to manifest what I want in the world without. It seems like I am trying to imagine being on a beautiful beach on a tropical island with my feet in the ocean, but when I open my eyes I am standing in mud. I almost feel like I am fooling myself.
This reminds me of the Cherokee Legend of the Two Wolves.
ONE EVENING, AN ELDERLY
CHEROKEE BRAVE TOLD HIS
GRANDSON ABOUT A BATTLE THAT
GOES ON INSIDE PEOPLE.
HE SAID “MY SON, THE BATTLE IS
BETWEEN TWO ‘WOLVES’ INSIDE US ALL.
ONE IS EVIL. IT IS ANGER,
ENVY, JEALOUSY, SORROW,
REGRET, GREED, ARROGANCE,
SELF-PITY, GUILT, RESENTMENT,
INFERIORITY, LIES, FALSE PRIDE,
SUPERIORITY, AND EGO.
THE OTHER IS GOOD.
IT IS JOY, PEACE LOVE, HOPE SERENITY,
HUMILITY, KINDNESS, BENEVOLENCE,
TRUTH, COMPASSION AND FAITH.”
THE GRANDSON THOUGH ABOUT
IT FOR A MINUTE AND THEN ASKED
“WHICH WOLF WINS?…”
THE OLD CHEROKEE SIMPLY REPLIED,
“THE ONE THAT YOU FEED”
We were told to give ourselves permission to be happy this week. I have done so. I am doing my readings and exercises every day. I am making these small practices a habit. I am telling myself every day that I am nature’s greatest miracle and that I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy. That I deserve to create a wonderful life for myself and my family. I am doing all I can to stay positive, to stay on track and to focus. I give myself permission to succeed.